suddenly feel so hopeless for my own future...i don't even think that i have a future myself...i feel so useless...until now,i still don't know what am i good at,what kind of potential i have so that in the future i won't starve to death...i realise that a lot of stuff i don't know...i feel that my brain is not working...who can tell me what i should do??there is no longer a clear path in my life...

may be i can be a monk instead...no worries,no problem...i don't have to worry that i will starve to death,don't have to worry what i cannot afford for my family...

simply i just feel so useless...i feel like i'm just an empty vessel...living my life daily when people around me are gaining more & more knowledge...am i really going to depend on my parents forever?? hai...what can i give my family,my parents?