IM A SELF-PROCLAIMED LOUSY GUY!!!!

in the past i used to emo about love life...but now,emo about my life,myself...

hai...really afraid to think about what my future might be...i admit,sometimes im selfish...not because that i don't want to do it,its that i know my limitation of what i can do...that's why somethings i don't want to do...

i think im too quiet...quiet till im afraid that people might find me a boring person...i also don't know what's wrong...sometimes i just don't know what to say or talk about...

i know my temper often gets over my head...i think 13 haven really see me damn fiere before...used to have a very bad temper...but i think its better now ba...cause i seems to have "kan kai" on certain things...only RU have always been seeing the fierce part of me at most times when we were still in sec school...

talking about being a son...im not very sure...although time & time my parents told me its ok,its alright,but i know deep down they are still worry about me...sometimes when they tell me if i no $ to use just tell them...but,aiya...how am i suppose to ask my parents for $...not because of what...i just feel that its not right...its their hard-earned $...the way i spend my $ is like open tap water...keep asking for $ i also feel bad...

talking about being a lover...sian...more jialat...im not thoughtful or romantic enough...whoever be with me,will get nothing but tears...im not those use & throw away kind of guy...

just now went clubbing,get to know 1 gal...my friends say i always go club sure get to know gal...upon hearing it,i also don't know what to say...i never thought that i can have any relationship with gals i know from club...just feel that it's always better to know more people from different places...

aiya...just feel that my life & myself suxs...