it seems that things is getting worst for me in 2007...

facing the possibility of forwarding the module...some more the module is not related to my course...its more like GP of JC...hai...do i really have to always re-take test in order pass or get better grade?? it appears so,its just like the same as my 'O' level english...sigh...but who can i blame...its all because im just too lazy le...

everything really look like a mess without her by my side...somemore i don't even know whats the r/s between us now...its like its no longer the real me...where is the old me?? can anyone lead me to my oldself?? can anyone give me a hint of what kind of person i am in the past?? can anyone point me in the right direction?? can anyone show me a beam of light in the dark??

i want to get back to my oldself where i am not living for others...i want to get back to my oldself where no one will be affecting my thoughts...i want to get back to my oldself where nobody's action will have any effect of my emotion...

i want to changed back to my oldself!!
i want to become the Ong Bo Yuan that i used to be!!

the life im having now is not the life i want...

from now on,i will take every possible steps to walk out of darkness to find back the old me...

Scott Ong Bo Yuan will be back soon!! the real me will be back...
i will no longer live for others...
i will no longer be affected by others...

*your words spurn me to get back to my oldself...you make me realise that it is i who have changed...i will make sure your actions,your words will no longer affect me...i should live for the one that really wants me to live...my parents,my friends,my bros...most importantly,i should live for myself...friends/stranger?? i no longer know who am i to you...forget it then...you should be living your life happily now,i will not break the happiness that you currently hold...your smile will naturally be mine,even though i no longer can see you smile...=)